Friday, April 13, 2012

Im gonna love you through it

"I'm Gonna Love You Through It"

She dropped the phone and burst into tears
The doctor just confirmed her fears
Her husband held it in and held her tight
Cancer don’t discriminate or care if you’re just 38
With three kids who need you in their lives
He said, "I know that you’re afraid and I am, too
But you’ll never be alone, I promise you"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.

She made it through the surgery fine
They said they caught it just in time
But they had to take more than they planned
Now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts
To hide what the cancer took from her
But she just wants to feel like a woman again
She said, "I don't think I can do this anymore"
He took her in his arms and said "That's what my love is for"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.

And when this road gets too long
I'll be the rock you lean on
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.
I’m gonna love you through it.
 
This song really hits home for me. My mom passed away thirteen years ago when I was five years old. She had cancer in her stomach that was unknown.
 
I was young when it happened, but I remember the day like it happened yesterday.. I was at my great grandmothers house in houston texas when we got a phone call. my dad answered the phone and started crying.. they waited a couple hours to tell me what had happened.
 
the surgery to remove the cancer went successfully but the doctor did not put her in the appropriate steps for her recovery. instead of putting her in a room for nurses to watch over her and make sure everything is going right he put her in a room where the elderly people go to sleep... she never woke up.
 
that was the worst day of my life. i would do anything in the world to have my mom back in my life.. to get to do all the things that mothers and daughters get to do together. my friends moms have always treated me like one of their daughters but nothing can compare to how great it would be to get to go prom dress shopping with my mom or cry to her when something hurt my feelings...
 
i miss her more than anything in the world.

1 comment:

  1. I wasn't around long enough to know you when you were younger and know about your mother. From what I've heard, she was a wonderful woman and even though I haven't been in your situation to lose my mother (if I did, my life would absolutely be over. Without my mother I completely and most honestly couldn't survive. She is everything I count on every second of my life.) You have your dad though who is amazing also so atleast God granted you this. My dad isn't around much but alive, but I still can feel you pain sometimes when you say you wish you could go prom dress shopping with her, I wish I had a dad around enough to go hunting with or fishing or some tom boyish things I like to do that my mom doesn't.

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